Have you ever seen a mom who is toting around what seems like a million kids, all who are whining/crying about something? And maybe you said to yourself, “Wow–why don’t people wait a little longer to have another child?!” Because clearly this mom is in over her head. Clearly she is not doing a good job because her kids are unhappy. And obviously you would do much better. Your child would NEVER scream in a store. Or run away from you. Or pee in the corner.
Or how about the opposite scenario: A young couple has been married for six or seven years. “Why don’t they have any kids? Are they just so into their careers that they don’t want to bother with kids?” a person might think to themselves. Maybe that couple has been trying to have kids for years and years and haven’t been able to. Or maybe they were pregnant but miscarried. What if they are trying to adopt?
Everyone has or doesn’t have kids in their own timing for their own reasons.
And the reason might simply be “Because God told me to.”
That’s the reason Miss E is here so soon. I was dead-set on not having another baby while my husband was in school. I was so overwhelmed with my two energetic boys I just didn’t think there was any way I could survive. I would look at those moms who kept having kids 18 months apart and wondered how on earth they could do it (I still think that, btw.)
I had dreams about a baby girl. And as months went by, I just kept feeling so strong like I needed to have another baby soon. And here we are, folks.
There are sometimes pitiable moments of hiding in the bathroom and wondering what possessed me to even want kids in the first place. Often these days I long for the days of just going out to eat or a movie without a babysitter. At the store I am a traveling circus, juggling a newborn and a toddler who likes to run away while my three year old begs for everything sugary in sight. But not one day goes by when I don’t thank the Lord for my miraculous little girl. The love that I have for this little baby pushes all those thoughts out the door. For all my children.
And when they say that motherhood is the toughest job you will ever do, that’s true. But I wouldn’t trade it for anything.